ode to 2013: the chrysalis stage

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the beginning was an end - the end to a creative challenge and a test of self - the foundations were at the infantile stages of testing - the birth of something so new - so unknown

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the exploration began - asking: how can psychedelia and erotica intertwine to create cohesive enticing imagery?

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this curiosity morphed into many mediums - many paths it became more than simply creating an image - the process - growing into situations that appeared to be uncomfortable - a genre of art that I could not create without others participation and openness

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ideas that had occurred 5 years previous were coming into fruition this is where I first felt home - I knew it was important - it drew me back in - to make me something of its own we drove through the night to be here - at your origin - to experience what life had previously been for you prior to our paths finding a crossroad

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you showed us old memories - we mapped out new ones -

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your bed became a nightly shared space for the four of us -

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a communion of sorts

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you met us two hours north of your home - and brought me back with you - 8 or so moon cycles had passed since you first entered my life -

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you lied to your parents so that we could visit this place of love - a singular man's creation - you let me sleep during the four searing hot hours of desert driving- thank you

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after feeling overwhelmed by 3 days of Los Angeles you drove me back north to Ojai - the nest of the moon

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the fleeting days of southern sun were filled with hiking and rejuvenation in sulfur springs - we headed back north

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we made stops along the way - to climb big ocean rocks and see others we loved - California felt like an entire country - endless exploration nearly two weeks and one car later we returned to the woods - we gathered - we cooked - we loved each other and just like that we were three months deep into this rotation - unknown friends left secrets - reminders of the importance

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I acquired a new medium to create - you trusted me enough to permanently mark your body - this was the establishment of something life long - you become more important with each lunar phase - my time had come to leave the woods once again - this time it felt near to impossible

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I felt removed - from my geographical location - from myself - creating - I learned how difficult it is to try and explain intangible forces that make us shift - I continued to explore past projections - existing somewhere between desiring to and having to attempts to keep myself in a constant state of creation - weekly - daily - hourly - time was disappearing - my mind carried a dormancy - thoughts subsided

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- but perhaps this is what it took for me to explore - losing myself in 12+ hour days - working two jobs on top of school - not telling you how I felt - running to the point that I came close to forgetting what it meant to breathe - to be - darkness cannot exist without light - new human connections were forming - they would sustain themselves through this strange time of transience

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I found love and appreciation in something I had never felt connected to - you challenged a new part of me - you taught and showed - thank you

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the past 6 years of my life had built up to this - it looked as disorganized and separated as I felt - surreal emotions at their finest

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I never showed up for my last day of that 6 year period - simply so that the sun could imprint lingerie on your skin while I captured the last time all 12 would be together - I still think they are some of the best I've taken 6 years - 2,190 days - 52,560 hours - and it was finally finished - it disappeared like the blink of an eye

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we had unknowingly picked up the same new medium - we exchanged hexagrams - you'll always be there

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the end made me feel more connected with you than any one point in the past 6 rotations

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the spark of traveling together lead to two weeks west - Mill Valley sun illuminated our minds we tried finding the redwoods only to end up in a strange dry patch of bushes - dirt - and insects that liked the way we tasted - we left to dance on a deck in the summer moon light with the aroma of eucalyptus and crisp ocean breeze embracing us we headed north - old and new met - we left permanence on our friends and didn't realize the amount of love we had for that place and those people until we were on the road again a day spent playing in a flower garden is never a bad day after a little over a week of being on the road - I made my return to the woods - except now you were with me - you got to see and experience first hand the place I was growing to love so - our time west was coming to close and I knew that I would make my home there come fall sometimes incredible people are met through strange digital interfaces - you were one of them - you came back from Olympia with us - one strange night in Montana and a day later - we were in the heat of city summer - you stayed with me for three weeks we cut out hundreds of eyes that night in preparation to decorate a warehouse - being around you has taught me a lot about love and how it feels you showed us red rivers and indian paintbrushes - we fell asleep in the sun and created pathways through plants bigger than myself - you are so much sunshine

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we found a new way to love each other as friends

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our connection is not one I originally expected but has grown to be so important - creating with you has been so playful and full of inspiration - thank you for the countless nights of nude creations, projections, weird articles of clothing, roof tops, and conversation

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I began learning the art of working with medicinal herbs to create skin care and tinctures - this became a new love - something that I believe will come back around the erotica exploration continued - the collection was building

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we left again - this time we were headed straight to the red desert - we made a temporary home inside one of the beautiful red formations - we climbed to the setting sun two nights of sand storms and feeling some what unrelaxed we left our ephemeral desert home and headed to Salt Lake City - this place held many unexpected relationships and became the corner of this cycle - it was the first of many exchanges - what are the chances that out of 23,00 others you were the one standing too tall in front of me? - the star falling from the sky told me it wasn't based on chance

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we acted on your streak of spontaneity - without thinking we drove all night to see the pastels of the dawning desert - there was little to no time in those 48 hours to find the darkness in front of our eyes - it was still hard for you - 12 hours feels like an eternity when that tension is created

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it felt abundant - we painted your walls like you used to - a memory re experienced - a new memory

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through the appreciation of each others creative endeavors the transient digital barrier connected us - it blossomed into collaboration and perhaps a future crossroad of physical paths

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the long days were fleeting - we left imagining 5 weeks of road ahead - after hours of singing improv songs and playing instruments we didn't know how to play we found ourselves central - almost in a confusion of how we had landed there - we passed the time with fun made of holographic sticker scraps and closed coffee shop doors - learning how to hunt for spiders and laughing at the over exaggerated future of the natural world as narrated in a british accent - departing for the west thinking the future truly existed - a semi came in from the left like a curve ball and made us reevaluate - you took us in for the night - your mother so kind and nourishing - it was the first I had seen you in a rotation and then some - we pretended to know and the universe showed us differently - one near death experience and 4 days later we found ourselves back at home

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neither of us felt the longing to be there - in fact we both felt quite the opposite - you left for the west - and an 8 year dream of mine actualized itself - it felt uncannily meant to be - as if we had been thrown into some cosmic machine of alignment - my love grew and so did the tiredness in me - I needed rest - it was all closing in so quickly

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and just like that I found myself living in the woods - in a personal paradise with fertile potential - I slept for two weeks - there was so much to absorb - there is so much to absorb

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I came to your definition of home for October - I was still tired - I still needed rest - somehow being there gave me a sense of closure - turned off the dormancy in my mind - the dam had been broken down

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it had been somewhat of a last minute decision to visit you on my way back from the midwest - perhaps some part of me knew how much my love for you was going to grow - you are so much light

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I carried so much internal rebirth home with me - strange times welcomed me back - we were entering winter - a time for fertile death - so many discoveries being made - so much growth in the dark

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I was re learning how to create - it was the unexplored everlasting void that I committed my time to - we delved into the trinity of creation - how could we channel that? - meeting the artists between each of us

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and just like that we settled in the deep magick of the darkest days of the year - our foundation was being rebuilt - you took me to the coast for the first time - the horizon was white and vast with no end - change was present

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we returned to our roots - they felt harsh and strange - I felt removed - this wasn't home anymore but it held some form of comfort - some facet of familiarity - the snake came back around - loose ends were tied - a weaving finished

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reminded of the beauty that bloomed in this rotation - the beings we were reconnected with - ancient acquaintances - kindred souls - we gathered one last time to create - love - share - discuss the horizons of the approaching horse

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it rushed out - many of us had been in this room 2 rotations prior - there was still something so familiar about you - as we were formally introduced for the first time it felt like a skipping track - something we had done before - how many times we had been occupying the same space unknowingly - I still don't understand completely - the mystery is the beauty of the human connection

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the cyclical nature of this rotation peaked the window of eternity - we are in a constant rotation within ourselves and each other - we have been observing the door way - and now we will step through